I miss you.

I was sitting home the other day and started thinking of all people I've had the pleasure of posting with in the BEA Forums. I started to reflect on those that posted for a while then just quit altogether. I thought of those that were there when I first delurked and started participating. My mind ventured to those that have been banned or upset enough that they voluntarily removed themselves from our little community. When it was all cut and dry in my minds eye, there was still one that stood out.

For those who are wondering where this is going, please have a little patience with me. I'm not known on the forums as someone who makes lengthy posts, because obviously I tend to ramble on amidst my waxing idiotic. I remembered what I think of as "the good ole' days" when I first registered as a forum user. So many people and here I was a "newbie" trying to join in. Almost immediately I was welcomed with open arms by the regulars of the forum. For that I'm grateful. But looking back on the now two-plus years of my time here, I've seen many great people come and go. Everyone who has been a user for some time knows of Sof(who removed herself from the scene for personal reasons, though she still pops in once in a blue moon), D_U_S_K(who has all but disappeared), Heavymetal1980(who got banned, but whom I still keep in contact with), etc.

But there is one I can no longer contact. There's one I can't participate in the forums with. There's one that I can no longer share humurous private messages with. If you haven't figured it out by now, I'm talking of Zasha.

It's been almost a year since we as a community lost Zasha in a tragic accident. Why do I bring this up now you ask? Well...I miss her. She was always so energetic on the forums that her personality could be felt in each and every post she made. She lived life to the fullest and in turn, made everyone around her better. Now, truth be told, I never had the pleasure of meeting her in real life. But that didn't stop me from getting to know her. I was and still am happy that I can think of her as a friend. And while on the subject of telling the truth...she was my inspiration for starting the BEA Princess thread. That's why I always listed her name first.

After news of her death, we as a community mourned in our own ways. Some of us wrote little heartfelt passages or poems. Others did artwork. Up until now there was one piece of work that never got shared with the rest of the community. I've had this piece for quite some time now, but just couldn't bring myself to posting it. After talking with the creator of the pic and my own recent thoughts, I've gotten up to actually posting it here to be shared. This is a piece that HM80 did, and even though he is banned from the forums, he is allowing me to use this picture. He too considered Zasha a friend.



I miss the first BEA Princess to be listed. I miss the 'Mac Muscle Girl'. I miss my online sister.

I miss my friend.
Z...we'll never foget you.