I
honestly
don't
believe there's a single visitor to the BEA who hasn't at least heard about the TWG phenomenon. And it truly has been a phenomenon. The most notable and longest-running episode, I believe, in the history of the BEA. From the very beginning, the weekly posting by the nearly anonymous "TW" of his former girlfriend have been under the closest scrutiny. And the questions to TW about her were piling to the Forum's rafters. Were the pictures real? Were they morphed? Who is she? How can I meet her? Does she have a sister? Why did you break up with her, you lucky bastard?????

I have to admit that at first, I was (and still am) a bit skeptical about the pictures. My reasons why don't really matter. And there are others who may agree with me. But there are also those fans who have likened her to a goddess and worshipped her from afar. Judging from the Forum posts during the weeks when TW would go on vacation and there would be no new pictures, those same fans seemed close to withdrawal symptoms and I wonder if either TW or TWG have any idea what kind of impact those 200+ pictures had around here.

My initial reaction to the very first pictures was "Bah! That's not real." I figured it was the work of a very talented morph artist or a stuffed shirt. It's very easy to acquire an oversized bra and fill it with any number of items for the desired effect. But as I said above, my theories aren't important and please don't e-mail me in TWG's defense hoping for a debate. You won't get one.

My next reaction wasn't exactly what you might think: I got angry. Why couldn't I have been blessed in that way? There are women in this world who hate having large breasts. I don't. In fact, I love it. Now, don't get me wrong, it's not as if I have nothing up top. F-cup breasts are nothing to sneeze at, although it does sometimes happen when I get a cold. But after viewing those pictures I felt as if I had nothing at all. I mean, how can anyone compete with her? It just wasn't fair. Not to mention that having people lust after you in that manner and for them to plead for more and more pictures must be the ultimate ego trip. Without a doubt, jealousy was rearing its ugly green head inside me and it wasn't a pretty sight.

I know it all sounds very childish, and I suppose it is. But sometimes we can't help childish feelings when it comes to something that seems very important to us. That's why, when I found out that the TWG pictures were coming to an end, I was glad. Glad that I didn't have to run across her pictures in the Gallery. Glad that no one would mention her in #!!BE_LOFT. Glad that there would be no more posts begging for more pictures. Glad that it was over.

I could end this column at this point, because the pictures did end. It's all over now and I can breathe my sigh of relief. But there is no reason to. Initially, JustMeMike wanted articles expressing thanks to TW and TWG for the last two years of pictures. And although it may not sound like it, that's exactly what this is. You see, I'm not angry anymore. Something happened a short while ago that changed everything.

As many of you know, I'm involved in a serious relationship with BustArtist. (Things are going wonderfully between us, thank you.) And when the BEA announced its contest for the implants, I thought that here was my chance to really get what I want. But when I mentioned it to BA, he didn't give me the reaction I had thought he would. Instead of readily agreeing with me, he calmly walked over to where I was seated in front of my computer, wrapped his arms around me and said, "No. I love you just the way you are. Don't you dare change a thing." I pulled back from him slightly and saw in his eyes, all the love I could ever possibly want or need. In those lovely blue eyes, I saw more lust for me than any TWG picture has ever experienced. It was then I realized that I don't need to feel like I'm the center of anyone's fantasy, except that of one man. And I don't need to search very far for him.

My hat is off to TW and TWG, you've made an indelible mark among the members of this community. Thank you for two years of pictures and for allowing so many members here a small glimpse of their desires. As for me, I thank you for (inadvertently) allowing me to find an important part of myself. For that, I sincerely thank you.

Juliekat